My Fall From Grace

Welllll, it is the 28th day of the new year so thought I would come out of my shell and write something.   My BG’s are leveling off now staying 101 avg daily.   Off the rolly coster ride I had the months of Nov and Dec.  I am sure most of it was stress.  Damn how do you deal with that.   Why am I letting things get to me so bad?  This is a question my husband ask.   My answer is it is just me  I can’t help it.   But who appointed me the worrier?  Who said that, YOU your the one who will worry when things are not going as planned,  you will make yourself sick if the kids are  a little late for Christmas dinner,  and you just must cry yourself to sleep if everyone wasn’t happy with there Christmas presents!  You do know you are in charge of everyone’s happiness, YES EVERYONE!  You will keep them in a state of euphoria  at all times.

Yes I understand.   The things that go on inside of my head sometimes would drive a less neurotic person nuts.     But I am going to do better this year, it is a new year and I’m going to work on not worrying so much.    I just hope I can do it!  I can do it right??   Oh Dear!

Hello everyone, man it has been really hard to get on here and write.  To much going on.  I have started baby sitting with my new grandson who is 4 months now.  I forgot how much work a baby is.  But I love it!  it wears me out but he is so much fun to sit with.  He is a funny little boy,  even at this age he likes to mess with your mind yes yes just let his dad did at that age.   But he is really a cool kid.  and so so sweet.

Anyway what I wanted to talk about is has everyone checked out the Diabetes Forecast out this month.  It is a 2010 Consumer Guide  tells you everything you need to know about Meter, Pumps etc.  It is a really good issue.  Big ad for the new Freestyle Continuous glucose monitor  Cool!  I would say probably pricey but nice to dream about.  Talks about the  new One Touch Ultra Smart  nice but try getting one give to you Hah!  Not going to happen.   It also tells what works best in heat and cold.  Which saves data.  Like we don’t know that?  There are meters I never knew existed,  good grief look at all of them.  Well if you haven’t checked it out, do so it is a good read.   Well I guess that is it for now, thought I should let you all know I am still alive out here, just changing a few diapers and putting away the Christmas stuff, will got that done thank heavens.

So here is hoping you all have a good New Year.  And I thank the Good Lord that this one is at an end.

WHAT A CUTE SANTA!

Ok Got this in a e-mail and just had to take a minute to share it with you.  Just Too Cute!

Nov. 14, Take The Big Blue Test

November 14 is World Diabetes Day. On that day, at 14 hours (your local time, no matter where you live), thousands of people with diabetes will test their blood sugar, do 14 minutes of exercise, test again and share their results online.

Take The Big Blue Test and tell everyone about it. If you have a blog, make sure to write about this event.

I hesitate as I write this blog entry because of the distastefulness of the subject.  But I also feel I need to address it.  I have been a member of the web board TuDiabetes for over 2 years now and I dearly love it.  Manny has just out did himself with this board.  But last week I experienced something so bazaar on the board.   Someone from my community posing under a fictitious name joined the board on Oct 1st and started harassing me.  Bringing into question my integrity and standing in my community.  This part was actually kind of comical for I have no problems with my integrity or standing in MY community.  They then brought my family and relationships with my family into it which I find asinine.   Who do you think you are to judge me or anything about me or my family using a fake name on a diabetes board, where people come to get comfort and understanding from other diabetics!  After the second day of this I messaged Manny who took care of the problem immediately.  Trust me Manny runs a class act over there, and anyone wanting a place to go for understanding this board it wonderful.

Needless to say I do have some advise for you my Poltroon Adviser .

1. you seem to have a problem, and should seek help for it.  Harassment is harassment even if you don’t put your name on it.

2. you need to man up and not hide behind fake names, remember when on the Internet you Always leave a trail and even cowards can be found.

3. you need to concentrate on your own life, instead of mine.  And maybe then you will find the happiness you seem to be seeking.

In other words STAY OUT OF MY FACE!  Leave me and my family alone.

Well last Saturday we hosted the Step Out Walk for Diabetes in my home community!!  It was Awesome!  we  had about 150 walkers there.  There was a health fair the first hour, then the walk.   And the people who showed up to walk were people who were there to make a difference, not because they were made to walk, for job reasons, or people who just wanted to get publicity, they were really honest people who cares.  We had a balloon released.  Since every 21 seconds someone is diagnosed with Diabetes that totals about 171 people in an hour so we released 171 balloons for awareness.   It was a sight that brought tears to your eyes.

Sharon, Michelle and I had some help from the nursing students at the college and the student senate did popcorn.   It was a lot of work but worth every minute.  And Justin was our spokes person.  He was diagnosed at age 3 with type1, he is now 28 years old.  5 months ago he underwent kidney transplant the a month later a pancreas transplant and is doing just great today.  He is engaged to be married to Jennifer and they both were such a great help to use.   It was just a pleasure to work with such kind and helping people.   Our totals are not in just yet but from what we had seen they were going to be great!!!

to view pics go to:

http://tudiabetes.com/profile/dsarmstrong

Okay, it has been a hell of a summer for me.  Especially for the BG’s, and I don’t mean in a good way!  Earlier I had to walk away from a group that I loved being a part of (AND HELPED START)  won’t go into it but look up my emotional vampires post, that will explains much of that.  And if you add some financial shortfalls, various other slips, giggles and cur-bumps to the summer throw in some heat with lots of rain (you know so the grass will grow really really fast).  Then my son being diagnosed with Diabetes. New grand baby on the way, then he gets here and has to spend a week in the NICU (we are talking grandma stress).  But he is doing so great now and is such a little doll, just no way that little sweet thing could cause any stress.

Then top it all off with a serious case of allergies, Well you are talking some crappy summer time fun.  My A1C has went from a pleasing 5.2 to an average 6.0.   I know that is not that bad but! it is NOT what I want it to be.   So I stress out about that and find I an on a roller coaster to hell.     I have got to refocus and start over doing what needs to be done.   So I downloaded some new songs on the I-pod and this morning while walking I heard my new theme song.  It is by Sugarland and it is called “It Happens!”

“Ain’t no rhyme or reason

no complicated meaning

ain’t  no need to over think it

let go laughing.

Life don’t go quit like

you planned it.

We try so hard to understand it

irrefutable, indisputiable the fact is

PSSSSSH

IT HAPPENS!

I CAN DO THIS ;>)

Will I have been busy this week.  But not as busy as my son and his wife Jenny.  They worked very hard and brought into this world a very very beautiful baby boy.   7lbs 15 oz.  21 1/2in.   Born Aug 18th 2009.  He has a head of black hair, which after his bath the nurses did a comb over.  And last night grandma got to hold him for the first time.  He is a very precious gift.

THANK YOU SHAUN AND JENNY!!!  For making grandma smile.